life... changer??

Have u ever had a day in which would change the rest of your life?? YOu know.. the kind that u sorta see in movies and stuf and think would never be real?? Some thing that would not change your style of life but also your mindset and your mannerism's?

Well i thought these kind of days were like never gonna happen... till today. It's just like... hwoah.. not so perfect yet... so real.. infact not perfect at all...

Have u ever been stuck in a dilemma which would probably affect the rest of your life?? The kind u think would only come along when you're working or have a family or sth?? And these choices are based on what u have obsereved and set apart in your own way and yet being asked to move away from this reality into screen-play mode in order to progress along in life??

ARGh! sometimes i just wanna scream... i really.. dont know if alot of ppl. go through this 'phase'.. i just wish it wasnt happening.. just wish that days like these would nver have to come along.. though sometimes we wanna now what they really are like... just wish i could undo alot of the past.. yet keep some of it.. and i would never have the experience had i not gone throught these stages..

yet do i really want those experiences?? do i want to grow up so fast??? i just wish... i dont know..

i wont say much about what really happened.. it's really.. kinda personal.. but.. all i'll say is i'm in a dilemma right now... and one of those u dont really like to make a decision about..

do i really want to make a change??

these are the words of one of the songs i'll be performing next week.. mebbe i should have paid closer attention to them earlier.. it's by michael jackson.. the chorus goes like this:

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking if he'd change his ways
And no message could've been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself then make that
Change...

... if you wanna make the world a better place... take a look at yourself.. then make that... change...