the past.. present.. future.. and the fear

Hi! Sorry i have not been blogging for so long.. was rathe lazy actually and cos past four days was at youth camp. Well.. it was held of all places in my school and we stayed at Oldham Hall.. the food was.. horrendous.. really..

Anyway.. Jeremy Seaward was the speaker and God moved mightily through him.. though i wished dearly he had reached and prayed for every single one of us.. but i guess it wasnt erally necessary..

Well.. moving on.. yeah the camp (other than the food) was really great!! especially Gary's roles!! haha.. cant get the song outta my head now..

Then there was it.. it?? yes.. the power of God.. Pressed by the expectations by the previous years camp.. the worship team gathered together to discuss what we really were doing on the last night.. we had a debate on whether we should have the 3 hr worship.. and what we were doing it for.. we finally decided to break up and spend the next 20 mins praying with the Lord and asking for this guidance..

I found my own secret corner.. and did the 'let your bible fall open to a page and it would be God's word thing'. Twice it fell open to John 4 and the story of the Samaritan woman.. in which near the end it says "for the father seeks as such (ppl who will worship in spirit and in truth). Twice i thought that it was not true and flipping the bible open like this was not actually a feasible idea.. then an i dea sturck me.. and i decided to talk to God.

And boy has he never spoke to me so much at one go..

Bible verses started flooding my mind.. Like in a speech.. and he kept going on and on about how he wanted his people to worship and pray.. and.. worship in spirit and in truth.. at that point.. i knew it was not a coincidence no more..

Went back to the stage where eugene was silently worshipping with my git.. a few of us gathered round first... and i poured out myself to God like never before.. i worshiped.. like never before..

and while we were slowly gathering back.. God spoke through me to the team..

sorry i cant write out the whole message partly cos i dont remember all of it but.. i think its not right as the message was really meant for the team.. and after i spoke..

the fear of the Lord came upon me.. and for the next two and a half hours.. i couldnt stop shivering.. because of the fear of the Lord... has the Lord ever spoke through you before??? i mean.. the Lord. spoke. through. me. and i cowered in fear after that.. knowing i was so unworthy.. so unworthy

and for the next three hours... all the campers just gathered together and prayed.. yes.. three WHOLE hours.. and the Lord came like never before.. and we were on our knees crying and weeping in the unworthiness of ourselves.. and the Lord moved.. tremendously.. no one had expected this at all.. no one

just... pure prayer.. for three hours.. and i didnt pray much for i was too afraid even to speak.. fear.. it was just fear.. that shook me..

anyway.. so we hardly had any worship.. but still the lord worked wonders...

after that we played cards for awhile.. some stayed up the whole night.. but i went to slp..

before all this was the talentime.. aiie.. my grp came in second again for the second time!! i'm so pissed.. the 1st place has been just out of my reach for two years... mmf!

yeah.. this is all i have to say.. for now..

when the fear of the Lord comes upon thee.. best thou fall to thy knees and cry.. for thou art unworthy.. and the Lord art holy.. so holy