the clay...

So there it is.. the truth is out.. well said Raj.. ireally don't know if i wanna thank you or condemn u forever.. but i mean.. i can't right??? i don't care if ms Pang or Raj reads this blog... i'll just say it straight out loud n' clear.. i am DAMN offended.. that's right.. DAMN.. don't push it man.. don't darn PUSH it.. i can take some but don't overdo it...

i reallly REAAALLLY wanna swear alot like.. right now... @#(&*%*#^#@^$!@*&#$_(*@($#&%#*()@@!^$*(@!^_#*&*($(#^%&*(#^&%^@#&*(@*(&$()!@*#(*@)#(@+_!)#+_@($%#*@%&()@#$&*(&%*)@#$&%)*(@#&%()&*@#()$*(@#&%()*#)&!@#(+_#$()!*%(#&%#()@&%(#$%Q@#$@# YAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i havent even chosen my path yet..
and yet i feel like i'm being hurried...
i know u both have the right intentions and i try to take it the right way but sometimes... i just can't... some very few times.. like this one..

gosh... sorry if this surprises you who reads my blog... tis just that..
why's my heart so heavy and feels so burdened?? i don't wanna go through this now.. is this like.. my trials and tribulation.. well sure i thought that they would be much worse but.. i think this is as far as i can take it...

haiz.. i think i need... i need to get a grip on myself.. get back to trust.. get back to Him..

change my...
change my heart O Lord..
make it ever true.. change my heart O Lord
may i be like You..

You are the potter..
i am the clay..
take me and mould me..
this is what.. i.. pray...

indeed.. it is what i... pray