whole new playing field

My grades as of now:

All are a combination of the two common assessments.

Chemistry: A

Math: C

Economics: D

Knowledge and Inquiry: D






In ACS Barker, things were vastly different.


The students there were different, and a slightly less capable cohort of students went there for secondary education.


Yup, that's the truth.


We just could not compare to independent schools when it came to academics simply because..


We couldn't.


The people who came in varied vastly.


That's why we were never trained in independent study.


We were never adept at learning outside of the textbook.


The TYS was our main focus.


Do well in the prelims and you have much reason to panick because our prelims was barely above the O' LVL standard.


All our short attention spands, lack of discipline both in academic, atheletic and artistic pursuits often left us near the bottom.


Don't even start about Chinese grades.


Lowest in Singapore is all that needs to be said.


But though the environment may seem that tragic, to the students it made all the difference.


To me, it made all the difference.


I would have self-distructed then, were I to pit myself against the nations top.


In our Barker environment, being top was not hard to get.


We could play all the time and last minute mug like crazy and still get a decent grade.


That just goes to show how simple our papers were.


One twist in question however, kills 98% of the cohort.


That's why the teachers could not set out of the box questions.


We'd all just fail like crazy.


But top in Barker made you nowhere on the nations count.


Significant, yet insignificant.


Yet it was this drive for prestige that somewhat drove me.


My tuition teacher always said not to compare myself with independent schools for they were leagues away from us.


I finally came to understand that in Sec4 when I began comparing other schools papers to mine.


Ours was really.. easy.


But I am happy that though however small the focus was, it enabled us to produce results at the end of the day.




Onto ACJC, it is an entirely new playing field.


It is a quantum leap of levels.


The people I encounter here are brilliant.


Particularly those in my K&I class.


The way they think, question and synthesize often leaves me in awe.


And I'm having to do much to barely stay on par.


Here, if I don't constantly change my way of thinking, I get left far behind.


A,C,D,D...


That's considered not too good to me.


I could have done better in math but in the other two..


My train of thought is simply not adjusted to play skillfully yet.


I'm having to change to much..


And I need to master my time-management and discipline which is slowly killing me.


I'm no where close to doing so.


But I'm trying.


I'm trying.


Thank goodness ACJC is not the highest level institution.


If it were, I'd be having depression now.


But we still have the best :)


And I only want to compare myself with the best.


The best usually=scholars


Gawssshhh...


I'm am kinda darn friggin super ultra quantum-quadruper far behind them!!!





Or maybe not.





I can reach them.


It just depends how I change.







I will reach them.



I will.



I must.