Chasing Cars (Grey's Anatomy Version)

HELLO!

Haha there are very few songs that come along that I actually find interesting..


These songs don't always have to have lyrics that make sense ( cos I don't understand some lyrics here) but as long as they have a nice tune..


The kind that you could sing endlessly and not get sick of..


Then I really like them.


Haha so anyways here's Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol.


I don't even know what Grey's Anatomy is but the other videos really suck in quality so just have to make do with this :)


Yupp.


Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
Lf I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
I've said too much
But not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

chorus again.
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is found in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here..
If I just lay here...
Would you lie with me and just forget the world...

- what is bliss? -

I don't know.


Why am I trying so hard to solve someone else's problem before my own??


Is it out of true care and concern?


At a level of good friendship??


Or is it because of something else..


Maybe altruism?


Or something deeper.. something emotional...


I don't know.


I'll never know..


And I don't want to make any wild guesses anymore..


Every single previous time has been a wild guess..


And although at the start I'm so sure I'm right, it always turns out wrong in the end.


Why did I keep throwing myself into something I still nurse the wounds of??


But this time is different isn't it?


It's different.. it really is..


It had to be for the recent events to have unfolded the way they did..


It feels completely different from every past try.. and I think it might have a different result for this once... and I can say with more certainty that it feels.. right.


But then again I'm not 100% sure...


And it's always easy to reason out something and believe in it.


And lies are terribly easy to believe it too right??


I don't know.


Back to about me, am I trying to avoid something??


Am I putting on a facade by leaving aside the problem, or will I put on more of the steeple if I were to delve into it and try solving it...


Every single previous time I've tried to solve it.. it ended back at square one again..


And I'm just getting so sick and tired of trying to put up a false front.


I've learnt all too well that I can't make people adjust to what I want them to be, and concurrently, I can't adjust to what other people want of me.


Adjust in the fullest sense of the word.


I feel as if I've evolved.. yet at the same time shrunk..


I feel so big, yet so small.


With the gravity of academics slapping me so hard...


I can't believe the audacity I had to expect what I did..


I'm a total idiot..


I have been a total idiot for the past 5 years of my life to make the same mistake again and again..


What now shall I do?


Pick myself up and take each day as it comes?


But with each new day I carry the worries of the previous one along with me??


I don't have a choice I guess...


Life gets so much more complicated from here on..


I don't know.

- brace myself -

I never expected to be more busy after my promos than before it but..


It now seems that I assumed wrong lol.


With all the many activites, past (OPEN HOUSE), present (PW & CHINESE :() and future (KI PAPER 3 & SATS), I suddenly feel as if getting by the promos is no big deal.


That being said, I also don't want to get back my results anymore..


I think all my hopes of taking H3 Econs.. have diminished..


Sigh...


Haha okay I don't intend to be depressing today so on a lighter note, yes I do have braces now.


The brackets are Red, Blue and Gold in colour.


I'm so patriotic right??


I smile ACJC =D


It was kinda dumb.. cos right, they put a numbing thing which lasts for a few hours when they install the braces, so I was happily eating mcdonalds after I got it done on monday without any problems.


However, that night, as I bit a slice of toast bread for dinner..


OMY FREAK I ALMOST SCREAMED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


MY 4 FRONT TEETH WERE UBERRRRRRR PAINFUL LAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!


I almost completely lost my appetite there and then but luckily I didn't.


The ironic thing was, the very next morning, less than 24 hours after I got the braces and almost killed myself the night before, I ate fried squid from the taste of the orient stall.


My methodology was simple:


Cut it up and chew with my molars :)


However, I forgot to see two things.


->That the fried squid is actually very stubbornly hard.


->That my molar gum muscles get very tired very quickly.


My entire breakfast ended up with me trying to dissolve the fried squid with my saliva before swallowing it whole...


Not a very pleasurable and comfortable process I must say...


Oh well so the only thing I haven't done with my braces is had a meal of porridge, which just about everybody else did when they got them LOL.


It's quite funny, suddenly having so many people grinning weirdly at me and pestering me to smile..


And also quite funny that all the people with/who have had braces giving me advice haha.


Oh I also found out something..


The painkillers that my doctor gave me?


Don't work.


What good news.


Haha well at least all the pain is gone now, but for the past two days it was really irritating and quite painful at times.


Brushing my teeth has also now become alot more painstakingly slow.


Ahh at least the pain was unable to deter me sleeping peacefully :)


Okays I'm going back to the mundanity of chinese now.. :(


If you haven't seen my braces and are terribly curious to see how weird I look, you can try asking me to grin for you.


Whether I decide to show you or not is an entirely different matter:P


Tata.

- Till I -

WHOAR I think the word ' FUN ' is not enough to describe my day LOL!!!

1SA<3 SENTOSA OUTING

Haha I will give a detailed update when I get the photos..



Anyhow as much as I want to, I can't afford to have so much fun anymore..

With the SATs on Dec 2nd, the KI Paper 3 4500 word Assignment for which my proposal to UCLES is due in February, PROJECT WORK at the end of the month, and of course CHINESE on nov 3rd..

I'm seriously gonna have to push myself to the limit haha..

But yeah I guess to get into Cornell hard work is a necessity..

Woar.. Like one year ago in Barker... I wouldn't even have dreamed about these things lah..

Now it doesn't seem so crazily impossible anymore...

I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha.. well besides acad...

I know I'm forcing myself not to do anything..

I can't... I just don't have enough time..

And I'm not too sure whether this is the rebound effect...



Anyway, I have been searching for a song I wrote last year for a long time..

To me, it's the best song I've ever written yet for an out-of-worship context, and I was so sad when I couldn't find where I had stored it..

Well while looking through my folders today, I FINALLY FOUND IT AGAIN!!!

It was a song I wrote for my sisters wedding but...

Unfortunately it wasn't 'wedding' enough to be performed...

Oh well..

I'd just like to share it with you all anyways, even if it's just the lyrics.

I sure hope I'd get to perform it sometime to share the song with everyone, maybe during Arts Night next year haha.

Okay that's all for today.

Here it is:


Till I
©Bobby Lam 2005

Verse 1:
The first thing I notice as I wake up is the sunlight,
Streaming through my window
The dawn over the land

The first things I notice as I step out are the flowers,
Blooming with such beauty
Swaying in the breeze

And I can't help...

Pre-Chorus 1:
But think to myself, 'who's this painter?
Who paints these landscapes and these portraits?
Who's my artist and my sculptor,
Who gave me life and gave me hope?'

Chorus:
And I thank You
For You are faithful and true
Everything You have said you will do
Each morning Your mercies are new
And I love You
Can't express my joy but to praise You
And trust You in all that I do
Live loud till I meet You,
Till I meet You...

Verse 2:
The first things I cherish as I go about are the people,
People who are concerned for me
My friends and my family

The first I recall as I start to frown is the promise
That I'm never alone
There's always One who cares for me

And I can't help...

Pre-Chorus 2:
But think to myself who's my master
Who gave me friends who make my day?
Who's my closest friend and guardian
Who's grace will guide me all the way?


Verse 3:
The first things I notice as I off the lights are the stars
Shining in the night sky
Sparkling with such delight

The last thing I notice as I close my eyes is the comfort
And inexplicable peace
Knowing tomorrow will be fine

And I can't help...

Pre-Chorus 3:
But think to myself, who's this giver,
Who gives me strength to face each day?
Who's my angel who watches o'er me,
Who makes me burst with passion to say...

"... I thank You
For You are faithful and true
Everything You have
said you will do
Each morning Your mercies are new
And I love You
Can't express my joy but to praise You
And trust You in all that I do
Live loud till I meet You,
Till I meet You...

Till I meet
You..."

~ autonomy ~

PROMOS ARE OVER~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Technically I should be super happy, but after the chem paper.........


Well lets not talk about it.


Oh man... my A A B B grades that I were aiming for.. now definitely is impossible T.T


I'll probably get like A B D E instead lah....


BOOHOO!!


Anyway the past like 16 hours have been crazy lah..


Crazily fun that is..


Rushed home after chem then to church for a moment then to class dinner at Taka Breeks.


After that we went to Beatrix's the class reps place for stayover..


Not bad got 14 ppl that stayed..


LOL crazily fun lah we watched 3 movies, celebrated Claire's birthday, played a truth game where everyone was questioned like crazy, including me, played playstation like mad and chatted a good lot!!!


STUPID CLASS PPL!!


YOU ALL THINK I BLIND ISIT? NEVER NOTICE WHAT YOU ALL TRYING TO DO ISIT??


CHEN LEHENG!! still can say: "but she's a nice girl wad..." and TWICE somemore...


Wha lau...


But the chatting was really a great time of sharing =)


Haha.. SA3 UNITED!!!


Really super happy that our class is so ultra duper united, still can't really believe our luck lol.


First time I've slept so little at a stayover.. like only 1 hour lah..


AND WHEN IT CAME TO TODAY, IT DIDN'T END IN THE MORNING!!!


After breakfast we went to town to catch World Trade Centre...


HWOAR THAT IS LIKE THE SADDEREST SADDEST ULTIMATE TEAR-JERKING SHOW I'VE EVER SEEN CAN?!?!?


really cuts to your heart lah..


the entire show you fight super quantumquadruper hard not to cry, and it gets progressively harder and harder..


Stupid newspaper reporter lah.. it is at least 4/5 stars can?!?


TRUST ME, IF YOU ARE GOING TO WATCH THIS SHOW PLEASE BRING AT LEAST 2 BOXES OF TISSUE, YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT!!!


If this show can't make you cry.. no other show can lah..


Argh just came home super tired.. time I going to ZzZ now haha.


~gootenbyzen!!