139

well... today was a day i wish i could have more of... 15 plus hrs of sleep... (my DREAM!!!! WOOHOO) Encounter DVD by Riverview Church in between.. dinner and Anger Management DVD after that... Shiok mann... i think Encounter is a really nice cd.. quite good too... for those who have it i like tracks eh.. 3,12,13. really nice.. i especially like track 12 called 139. its actually from Psalms 139 and heres the Psalm.

Psalm 139
1 To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David. O LORD, thou hast searched me and known me! 2 Thou knowest when I sit down and when I rise up; thou discernest my thoughts from afar.
3 Thou searchest out my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. 4 Even before a word is on my tongue, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.
5 Thou dost beset me behind and before, and layest thy hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain it.
7 Whither shall I go from thy Spirit? Or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
8 If I ascend to heaven, thou art there! If I make my bed in Sheol, thou art there! 9 If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10 even there thy hand shall lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, "Let only darkness cover me, and the light about me be night,"
12 even the darkness is not dark to thee, the night is bright as the day; for darkness is as light with thee.
13 For thou didst form my inward parts, thou didst knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise thee, for thou art fearful and wonderful. Wonderful are thy works! Thou knowest me right well;
15 my frame was not hidden from thee, when I was being made in secret, intricately wrought in the depths of the earth.
16 Thy eyes beheld my unformed substance; in thy book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.
17 How precious to me are thy thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
18 If I would count them, they are more than the sand. When I awake, I am still with thee.
19 O that thou wouldst slay the wicked, O God, and that men of blood would depart from me,
20 men who maliciously defy thee, who lift themselves up against thee for evil!
21 Do I not hate them that hate thee, O LORD? And do I not loathe them that rise up against thee?
22 I hate them with perfect hatred; I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts!
24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!

i cant put the lyrics of the song here right now but i will as soon as the site is ready.. (im too lazy to type all the lyrics out).. so yeah.. i also would love to put the song on the site but.. unfortunately i have no idea how to.. haha.. can some1 tell me pls??

Lol.. anyways i will be up in KL visiting my grandparents from tues to thurs so wont be around till prob friday. In the mean time if some1 could pls go find out how to add songs the weblogs n pls inform me!! i think my phone has autoroam so can still sms me... till Fri!!!! Cya all... Cheers;D

-boxing day-

BISH!!! So today was boxing day. Woohoo played for pnp!! Lol went to macs during the second service during the sermon. (whoops??)lol.. Had a mcFlurry while the others ate other stuf'. My family came for the first time to Wesley and to watch me play. My sis n bro came by themselves and my parents were like.. 20 mins late... cos they had to rush from another church.. so they were... RIGHT IN THE FRONT ROW!!!!! aiie... lol.. but somehow didnt feel nervous @ all.

So after service i decided to follow my family to FishnCo' for lunch instead of going to Thai express with some of the band. Well.. most of the band wasn't there anyways.. so... HAD CHOCKIE JUNKIE!!! WOOHOOO!!! the whipped cream was like... alot... totally fats mann.. shared a seafood platter 4 2 with me sis. Haha lucky she eats very little.. so i get almost de whole thing!!!! Yeah.. i can guess this is my christmas family lunch!! although one day late..

After that went shopping.. i got one cd by NewsBoys latest album and the Encounter DVD by Riverview Church in Perth. Yay!! So dat's me christmas present lol. Also got membership at Trumpet Praise. FINALLY!!! Then we headed down to Taka to Zara Men to get pants for my bro. Too bad had no size so had to come another time.. :(.. but heck.. it's my bro.. lol

Then came back to sleep till 7 then off for BAND Dinner!!! Haha.. had lagsane( Howtospell??) and roast ribs for dinner. wow the ribs were good man. Then we a hid in the toilet and waited for Karen to come. HAHa.. yang Shen bluffed that we had all left alr. But then we rushed out with her B'Dae cakey. HAPPAE BDAE KAREN!!! lol.. after that we played polar bear for like ages... really fun man.. ben managed to talk himself out of being killed and won the game although he was de polar. Kudos to him.. too bad Arthur wasnt tehre or it woulda been much more fun..

Well... only abt ten of us dis tyme but still.. its been great.. as Band Charity.. really bonded us closer together.. so until the very last of this year... -Cacaw-

merry christmas.. my christmas

Merry Christmas!! Seems there isn't much time left.. sigh.. it just went by like that... how did i spend it?? Like this..

I woke up slightly before ten thirty and hurried out of the house to make it to the Christmas Service. I mistook the time and was half an hr late and had to sit outside for the service. Man was it packed. Well the service was good.. the music was awesome.. but the pastor preached abit out of point. Lol..

So after the service a few of us went for lunch then we went off to play lan. DOTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!! I was top hero for the two games we played although my team lost both. Haha... then i came home and just watched tv.. until like now...

thats it. that is and was my Christmas Day. No presents..(mebbe except a cd from a member in church).. no nothing.. no family big dinner.. no outing... just.. nothing

i don't know.. i guess it's been like this every year but this year it just hit me extra hard.. prob cos the last few yrs i was away skiing during christmas.. prob cos.... it just wasnt a family 'tradition'. No christmas tree.. No christmas presents.. No family gettogethers.. No singing of carols.. my christmas.. is just like another day to me.. well... mebbe be just slightly better cos i dun go n play lan everyday...

sigh... when i visit ppl's. houses n see their trees and presents stacked under them... i just sometimes feel abit jealous.. i mean.. i guess cos this kinda thing never happened to my dad so he too don't do this kinda thing.. and i dare not ask why nor for presents cos ive gotten a guitar way out of the original budget and i think i should not ask for more.. but sometimes... sometimes mebbe i shouldnt have gotten my git instead and have all the other lovely materialistic things peers get.. but then again... nah..

haiz.. i dont know... i guess.. ill just have to get used(mebbe i already am) to my mundane christmas.. but i guess i cant be sad right.. for on one such day long ago a saviour was born unto the world to save mankind..(woah sounds so kool).. lol.. but its true right.. guess ill just like.. spend my last few christmas moments later wishing Jesus a happy birthday and asking Him what it was like when he was little and what presents he received for His birthdays. Musta been a super lot of God's blessings eh.. mhm

well.. thats all for my christmas.. hope urs has not been as dull as mine. Cheers!! ;D

my fourth song.. the story

Hi!! so i guess i'll be posting the ten most ridiculous things ive done so far in my life some other time. so sorry!! Yeah so i just finished my fourth song.. well its version one.. don' think i'll be changing it much though.

Well... yesterday night i was feeling frustrated and angry for like.. i dunno.. i just felt upset and impatient.. with God.. with my family.. with my friends..i guess it was cos i was kinda afraid and unwilling to trust in God.. haiz..

Had a talk with my dad in his room.. i asked him "Hey dad, have u ever been afraid to ask God for something for fear that he might say 'no' or that 'i have better plans for you'? i mean like.. u noe.. unwilling to trust Him if He did not answer the way you wanted Him too?" he thought for a moment... and i just waited (he was lying down). Then he turned his head to my direction and said "Well... follwing God's direction and answer will definitely be the easier choice. The mst difficult path u can ever take is the one not assigned by God or the one u purposely choose not to follow and do otherwise." then he followed up with "Relationship prob. right? caos u can't possibly be thinking of a job or studies.." i just quietly got up and left the room then. I just didn't want to answer him.. but yet he still seemed to noe everything about me though i didnt say it out.. guess thats why he's my dad..

So i just washed up and went to struggle with God after that... i reached for my bible on my table from my bed to try to find some bible verse that would speak to me.. i accidentaly dropped it (whoops) and it fell open to Numbers 14 about the people rebelling against god in the desert and God was speaking out his punishment and reprimands like " How long will these people treat me with contempt? How long will they refuse to belive in me despite of all the miraculous signs I have performed?"v11- and He went on to speak of the destruction he would bring about BUT!!
Moses reminded the Lord that He was the one that had rescued the ppl. in the first place and that God was ' slow to anger, abounding in love and forgiving sin and rebellion.' Yet the Lord was.. still God man..

On my next flip i flipped to Isaiah 40-41 and started reading both chapters. It was totally about the splendour of God and what he did, set the stars in the sky, created the heavens.. the earth etc. etc.

Isaiah 40: 27-31
28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary, his understanding is unsearchable. 29 He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. 30 Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; 31 but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.

Isaiah 41: 10 and 13
10 fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.
13 For I, the LORD your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, "Fear not, I will help you."

well.. i guess peace just overcame me.. and i just started singing Isaiah 28-31 in a tune and soon it became a chorus.. adding in Isaiah 41 and soon i had a verse and a pre-chorus written out.. and the bridge i did this morn.. finished around 2+ am..

so here goes... its called.. Hope In You

Hope In You
©2004 Bobby Lam

Verse:
You are God and i am just a mere man
You are God and i am nothing without Your strength
What are my ways? Compared to Your plans?
You are God and i surrender all i am

Pre-Chorus:
And Yes Lord i know
Yes God i've heard
There is no other like You
Yes Lord i know
Yes i have heard
You are the Ever-lasting King

Chorus:
And I will run and not grow weary
I will walk and not feel faint
I will soar on wings like eagles
For my hope is in You, my hope is in You
The Lord of my life
And I'll not fear for You are with me
You who hold me by my hand
And I'll stand upon Your promise
For my hope is in You, my hope is in You
God of my heart my life

Bridge:
You are my hope, my Hope

part II of my holidays

So todays about what i wished i did during the hols but couldnt.. btw. im like peeling right now.. ARRRGHHHH!!!!!!! hate it... and its only my face.. not my arms yet... brr.. mmmF!!! anyways.. so ya.. lemme just give u some background info abt my past fav hols experiences..

Yesterday i met my friend(felicia) at worship prac. She had just come back from her holiday to Korea and was talking abt how she sprained her wrist on her first day of snowboarding.. SNOWBOARDING!!!!! wow.. i haven't tried that b4.. my bro did once but he didnt favour it over skiing.. SKIING!!!!!

I still remember when i first skiied.. i was about seven then.. and my family joined two other families who were like pro to go to Vail Colorado to ski. There were 6 days to ski and my whole family attended lessons. The lessons were for three days and after that we could join the otehr families. Hwow.. it was really fun.. learning to ski.. and parallex errors about how gentle a slope looks from the bottom but when ure at the top.. hwoah.. its a totally diff. experience.. ure like " ehh.. am i on the slope i was looking at just now?? it seems to have adjusted by 10 degrees steeper.."

Lol.. yeah.. i was in a class abt my age grp and so off i went!!! Then on the day after my ski school ended(the fourth day), tragedy struck. Bleah.. it was when my family and i joined the others to ski by ourselves and i.. i had a fall and my glove came off.. and the temperature was like minus-15 and my hand got stuck in the thick, cold, saturated snow. My hand started to turn blue and one of my uncle's rushed down the slope to call for help while my dad blundered over and stuck my hand inside his ski coat to keep it warm... i remember i couldnt feel my hand at all!!! (it was my right hand) and i couldnt stop shivering while other ppl. came over to offer hand warmers(the stuff u put inside ski gloves to give u warmer hands.)wow!! it was SOO embarrasing!! lol.. but hey it was no joke..

Soon enough.. (it seemed like forever to me though) a snowmobile came riding up the slope and a ski guide helped me on it and we snowmobiled to the nearest headquarters.. back there they had my hand checked (by now i was indoors) and to warm my hand up they gave me a cup of hot milo to hold. wow.. the americans are so friendly!! and they also talked to me and kept me company till my family came.

Well... for the next two days.. i was sent back to ski school.. SOB!!!!! i felt so left out that i was the only one left in ski school but hey there was a sorta competition for beginners which i took part in and got 4th!! yay!! lol.. yeah.. thats about it for my 1st ever ski trip and traumatic experience.

Over the years i skiied about 4/5 more times... (cant remember) once in france, once in Japan and twice in Canada (whistler). Yeah and now skiing is so easy to me and SHIOK!!!!(especially when ur plummeting down a slope 100km/h) WOOHOO!! just.. dont fall.. my dad broke his ligement right below his knee on one bad fall in france.. he had to be sent for operations immediately when we arrived home. We didnt go the year after that but then two years later we hit the slopes again!!! (we couldnt forget the sheer enjoyment of skiing.. its like.. once u start u cant stop!!)

Yeah and i still remember after each day u just want to fall into the hotel bed and sleep cos u'd be so friggin' tired. lol.

Last year i went to ski in Vancouver.. it was abt one whole wk of skiing with a family of my bro's friend. Yeah.. it really was fun but.. on the second day my bro went off with his friend leaving me n my sis to ski by ourselves.. u noe before this trip i was the lousiest among my elder bro and sis and they always had to wait on me.. in this trip however i was much much better than my sis.. i went much faster and further and always had to wait for her instead.. making her feel so guilty she almost didnt wanna ski with me anymore.. for fear that she wasnt making my experience fun.. my bro is still the best though.. wow.. hes like pro lah.. but dun worry.. im one step behind.. though i STILL HAVENT TRIED A BLACK SLOPE!!!! Yarg!! skiied so many times and still havent attempted the second toughest ranked slope on any of my trips before.. dunno what a black slope is?? here is some imformation for YOU!

Colours of slopes(according to degree of slope and level of difficulty):
1. Green - For beginners new to skiing or old folks afraid of fast slopes. The gentlest any easiest type of slope.

2. Blue - For intermediates. These slopes are slightly steeper and harder to manouver. These slopes are the ones i usually ski on.

3. Red - Not all places have this. This slopes are for intermediate-advance skiiers. These slopes are pretty steep and quite challenging. I love skiing on these slops the most. For the places that dont have this colour slopes this colour falls under Blue.

4. Black - A slope for advance - expert skiiers. Extremely steep at like 60-75 degrees and very challenging and very very dangerous. This is the kind of slope if i dont try on my next trip i would terribly regret!!! My bro has only been on this kind of slope once and he had to manouver extremely slowly in order not to fall and no beginner should ever dream of trying this kind of slope out. I still want to though cos im getting abit tired of blue and red slopes. Though im not sure if im fully prepared yet but.. i'll never noe right?

5. Double Black - This kind of slopes are for experts - professionals. Unbelievably steep from 75-90 degrees!!! Yes, thats right, 90 DEGREES!!! some of these slopes have twelve foot drops in the middle of them!! woah... i definitely would not try these slopes till black slopes are my forte. Even professional skiing competitions mostly use black slopes, not double blacks. I kudos to all the brave who go on these life-threatening slopes. GG to them man.

Yeah.. so really regret that i didnt get to ski this year.. haiz.. but i will ski in 2006 after my o's at Lake Taho!! WOOHOOO!!!!!! but.. theres o'levels b4 that.. haiz... AARRRRGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! really wish i skiied this year.. o well.. i didnt have space to fit the trip in if i did go anyway.. haiz... MUST DO A BLACK SLOPE!!!! lol... guess this is all for now.. haha looks like i wrote like.. alot.. whoops.. haha... well there u have it.. the thing i missed most during my hols... really envious of ppl who went but.. guess its too late to complain now..

next time ill post the ten most ridiculous things ive done so far in my life that i can remember.. till then!! CHEERS :D

the holidays.. my holidays..

Hello there!!! Haiz.. i've been thinking.. the holidays just went by like that... just yesyerday and it was the last day of school... and what has happened?? Two more weeks and the mugging for o'levels will begin.. with SYF and otehr stuff also impending.. so.. what has happened?? Here are some of the most memorable moments in my holiday.

1. Electric Youth:When was it?
-18&19 of November.
What was it?
-A performance collaborated with the Down-Syndrome Association(DSA)and ELDDS which included mostly dancing. The songs that the choir danced for were pre-recorded in a studio. Kool stuff.. too bad i was sick so couldnt take part. So.. it was really fun and an eye-opener about how to treat disabled people better and to work with them. Had a really great time dancing and fellowhiping with fellow choir mates and other society's members. It was the first time i had blue hair!!! And i learned how to dance better and with style. All thanks to Raj, the exucutive producer.
Rating:
-4.0 Stars!!!


2.Worship Retreat:
When was it?
-26&27 of November
What was it?
- It was a time the YM worship team got together for a retreat in which we had fun games and stuff and bible studies on worship and also a sermon by John Piper. We slpet at YMCA across the road and had the workshops mainly at Wesley itself. Really opened our view of worship and how to worship and who we really were worshipping. Too bad i wasnt around much on the second day but the Saturday Night service which my band led was fantastic. God really moved. We also learnt the importance of being God-centered not self-centered. And God's absolutely infinite morally perfect yet accesible holiness.
Rating:
-Unratable

3. Playing for teacher's wedding:
When was it?
-27 November
What was it?
- Playing and singing a duet with Yang Shen for school teacher Mr Siow's wedding. Had a great time!! played the solo perfectly!! Haha. Received Hong Bao too!! Yay!! lol... money face ;D
Rating:
-4.5 Stars


4. Youth Camp:When was it?
-9 to 12 December
What was it?
- A camp in which God moved mightily among the Youth through not worship but prayer. A three hour solid prayer on the last night. Had lotsa fun too, with the talent night and the Bachalorette. Didn't really keep in touch with my angel and mortal though. (whoops!) Had a very memorable experience although God didn't speak to me much during the camp as all he had wanted to tell me was already told before camp. Still He reminded me during the camp though!!
Rating:
- 5 Stars!!!

5. Sentosa Performance and SYC Performance.When was it?
-19 December
What was it?
- A horrible performance at the musical fountain by our choir but still we had fun. Though only 11 people performed and it was really.. horrible.. ugh..
- A Winter Solstice by the SYC (Singapore Youth Choir) performed at the esplanade. Songs were really slow so i didnt like them much but.. it's a solstics so hey.. who's complaining??
Rating:
- 3.5 Stars

6. SENTOSA OUTING!!! ( THis is the last one for now)
When was it?
-21 December
What was it?
- A day at the beach organised for the sec3s of YM. WOW!! Probably the most memorable day of my hols!! We played ultimate frisbee.. volleyball.. and SEAHORSE!!
Seahorse: Climb on someone's shoulders in the water and try to push another pair off their own horse (person). SUPER DUPER QUADRUPER FUN!!!!! Also was the poking of mel and moonie as they were scared of jellyfish and some guys preteneded to be them!! haha jerrold.. wow.. their screams were.. ear piercing mann.. well.. i accidentally tripped xuefeng during frisbee but he still doesnt believe me.. so.. lol.. and Ernest kept going on about the saltwater toad!! HAHA all just to scare some of the girls.. we also managed to build a human pyramid with 3 levels in the water!!! Really fun stuff.. tiring though.. so YA!!
Rating:
-6 out of 5 Stars.

So i guess i can't complain my holidays have not been a blast.. well.. i'll continue tomorrow on what i really wished i could do but didn't his hols.. Anyways it still really was great and im looking forward to christmas!! Till Tomorrow!! CHEERS :D

De Riddle 4 Today

well... melissa's answer is.. umm.. not that clear and josh... i dont think ur making any sense at all.. nice try though.. but its wrong.. so YOU _._._._.!!!( read previous days post).

Answer to the previous riddle:

He is telling a lie. He cannot possibly be telling the truth, for if he was he would be lying.

simple riddle.. surprised no one got it.. close though.. close..


Today's Riddle:


The word CANDY can be spelled using just two letters (alphabets). Can YOU figure out how??

(Answer is tomorrow!! Have fun solving!! Remember if u solved wrong.. U SUCK.. but cos this riddle is fairly hard.. hmm.. u won't suck so much.. but u still will suck so.. happy solving!!)

Riddle of Today

Hi i'll be starting my short riddle series with a new one everyday. If ya got the answers just give a shoutout on the taggy. If ya think u got it give a shoutout too!! However.. if you're wrong.. YOU SUCK FOREVER!!! lol.. the answers will be posted the next day with the next riddle so here goes!!

Riddle:

A man walks up to you and says -
"Everything I say to you is a lie."
Is he telling you the truth or is he lying?


This is pretty easy so if u dunno... YOU SUCK!!! ;D.. have fun!~!

the past.. present.. future.. and the fear

Hi! Sorry i have not been blogging for so long.. was rathe lazy actually and cos past four days was at youth camp. Well.. it was held of all places in my school and we stayed at Oldham Hall.. the food was.. horrendous.. really..

Anyway.. Jeremy Seaward was the speaker and God moved mightily through him.. though i wished dearly he had reached and prayed for every single one of us.. but i guess it wasnt erally necessary..

Well.. moving on.. yeah the camp (other than the food) was really great!! especially Gary's roles!! haha.. cant get the song outta my head now..

Then there was it.. it?? yes.. the power of God.. Pressed by the expectations by the previous years camp.. the worship team gathered together to discuss what we really were doing on the last night.. we had a debate on whether we should have the 3 hr worship.. and what we were doing it for.. we finally decided to break up and spend the next 20 mins praying with the Lord and asking for this guidance..

I found my own secret corner.. and did the 'let your bible fall open to a page and it would be God's word thing'. Twice it fell open to John 4 and the story of the Samaritan woman.. in which near the end it says "for the father seeks as such (ppl who will worship in spirit and in truth). Twice i thought that it was not true and flipping the bible open like this was not actually a feasible idea.. then an i dea sturck me.. and i decided to talk to God.

And boy has he never spoke to me so much at one go..

Bible verses started flooding my mind.. Like in a speech.. and he kept going on and on about how he wanted his people to worship and pray.. and.. worship in spirit and in truth.. at that point.. i knew it was not a coincidence no more..

Went back to the stage where eugene was silently worshipping with my git.. a few of us gathered round first... and i poured out myself to God like never before.. i worshiped.. like never before..

and while we were slowly gathering back.. God spoke through me to the team..

sorry i cant write out the whole message partly cos i dont remember all of it but.. i think its not right as the message was really meant for the team.. and after i spoke..

the fear of the Lord came upon me.. and for the next two and a half hours.. i couldnt stop shivering.. because of the fear of the Lord... has the Lord ever spoke through you before??? i mean.. the Lord. spoke. through. me. and i cowered in fear after that.. knowing i was so unworthy.. so unworthy

and for the next three hours... all the campers just gathered together and prayed.. yes.. three WHOLE hours.. and the Lord came like never before.. and we were on our knees crying and weeping in the unworthiness of ourselves.. and the Lord moved.. tremendously.. no one had expected this at all.. no one

just... pure prayer.. for three hours.. and i didnt pray much for i was too afraid even to speak.. fear.. it was just fear.. that shook me..

anyway.. so we hardly had any worship.. but still the lord worked wonders...

after that we played cards for awhile.. some stayed up the whole night.. but i went to slp..

before all this was the talentime.. aiie.. my grp came in second again for the second time!! i'm so pissed.. the 1st place has been just out of my reach for two years... mmf!

yeah.. this is all i have to say.. for now..

when the fear of the Lord comes upon thee.. best thou fall to thy knees and cry.. for thou art unworthy.. and the Lord art holy.. so holy

invading

BOBBY!! nice not ur blog?!?! of cos!! i did it!! whee!! haha..oh wells..see lar..u still nvr blog..sigh..

love,
nat