bobby

Ever wondered how you got your name?? Was it from your parents?? Or a pastor or priest or just some name from the bible? Or after some famous movie star... (Which still falls into the category of parents decision.)

Well... Some of you may already know how i got my name.. but if u don't, here's how...

I'm the third child. Before me my parents decided on the names of my older brother and sister by if he's a boy, my father names him. Girl-my mom. So, my dad n mom each got a chance to name my bro and sis. Both were biblical names.

For me however... Since I came to be the decider for which parent named more children..(lame right) there was a slight tiff.. My mom wanted Reuben while my dad insisted on Andrew...

hmm...

Andrew Lam Yu Wen... eyuk
Reuben Lam Yu Wen... hmmm... might have worked..

Then one fine day while my parents were still deciding and i was staring blakly at them with my big innocent eyes planted in my oversized head (probably).. along came my 4 year-old brother..

"Let's call him Bobby..."

He was probably influenced by the character Bobdog.

So... that's how I got my name. Bobby Lam Yu Wen. Yes the story is true. And yes i guess you're not exactly wrong if you said i was named after a dog.

-woof woof-

中国名字

You know I've realised something? No one so far calls be by my chinese name. Not primary school teachers, secondary school teachers, tuition teacher and obviously not friends. No one. For some strange reason they all address me by my english name. Some who could speak english fairly well enough pronounce my name correctly. However, there were exceptions.

-In Pri 5 the teacher called me by the name of POPI. (Pronounced: Poh-Pi)
-In Pri 6, PUOPI (Pronounced: Puoh-Phi)
-In Sec 1, umm.. hrh I can't seem to remember who taught me. Lol.
-In Sec 2. it was BUOBI ( Yes. Pronounced Buoh-Bi)
-In Sec 3. the teacher barely cared about me at all so I can't remember what she addressed me by.
-This year, I got the same teacher as Sec 2 so it's back to Buo-Bie.

My tuition teacher ever since Pri 3 has been calling me Bobby even though she calles my brother and other students by their dialect names. At least now she gets it right. I just don't unnerstand. Is my english name just so easy to remember and catchy to pronounce?? Bobby.. hmm.. bobby...

So.. thus now the class cales me BUOBI too.. esp. during chinese class.. lol.. Actually now they've modified it to BOBI (Pronounced: Boww-Bie). At least they stopped callimg me BOPI( Boh-Pi)a year ago,which sounds terribly worse. Haha...

Boww-Bie the BobsTERTroN 3000. To infinity and beyond®!!

coincidence?

Something.. Mystical happened to me yesterday night.. It puzzled me to find out who the sender was.. And when eventually the answer was out.. I was shocked.. Can God use others whom we don't even know to speak to us? Sometimes are sms-es just by accident? I don't know.. But I'll belive such a thing now.. Here's what happened..

Yesterday night around twelve i received an sms and I didn't notice till abt half an hr later when I was setting the hp alarm. The number that sent it was 91540294. 91540294 - my no. is 91540194, and I thought, hwoah.. strikingly similar no.. and this was what the message inside read:

The road to success is not straight
There is a curve called failure
A loop called confusion
Speed bumps called bad friends
Red lights called enemies
Caution lights called family
You will have flats called jobs
But
If you have a spare called DETERMINATION
An engine called PERSEVERANCE
Inusrance called FAITH
A driver called GOD
You will make it to a place called SUCCESS!!

I then sent back: Hey Thanks! Sorry but.. who r u??

THe person didn't reply till the nxt morn just after school had started and I didn't read the senders message till after school. I really pondered who the sender was all through school. Someone from prayer grp perhaps or the worship team.

The message back: Srry send sms by mistake.

O_O

I got a shock.. Can't tell if it was pleasant or not.. but I knew it couldn't be just pure coincidence. It couldn't be. It simply can't. I had an urge to send back: Thanks anyway whoever you are. You really made my day. God bless!! Lol but guess i havent got down to it.

So whoever 91540294 is... I just wanna tell ya.. You're my

angel

~nothingness~

Lately I've been feeling very.. Uhh.. In fact.. Lately I've not been feeling anything at all. And I hate this nothingness. I just don't feel anything. I don't feel happy, I don't feel sad, I don't feel joy, I don't feel comfortable, I don't feel funny, heck I don't even feel lame. I space out all the time and stone like there's no tomorrow. I have absolutely no darn idea whats happening. Could it be because of worries?? Like the O's?? Or maybe emotions?? Or none of God??? Yes, I can't even feel God. He barely talks nowadays and I just can't seem to worship Him no matter how hard I try.

WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON!!!!

I just feel so.. empty.. empty like a seashell.. nothing inside but water.. nothing outside but tides and winds pushing me to and fro.. cascading with the flow..

You know.. sometimes i just wonder.. what if I wasn't here.. what if there was never a Bobby Lam Yu Wen in this world..
there'd not be this blog for which you waste time on reading..
there'd not be a class monitor to make fun off who always tries his best to insult the teacher through jokes..
there'd not be a guy who plays guitar on stage every three weeks for church.....
there'd not be this guy who leads worship for chapel in school whom everyone thinks uses a fake accent..
there'd not be that student conductor who tries his best not to make the choir boring and help the choir to survive..
there'd not be the younger moost-of-the time irritating brother to his older two siblings..
there'd not be some traitor who quit tennis for choir..
there'd not be some other fat guy who eats the most in school.. or used to...
there'd not be some bugger who mindlessly chases after innocent girls and gets hell of a lesson learnt and in the meantime portaying himself as damn shallow..
there'd not be some guy who hopped to another church as he felt he could connect with the youths there more..
there'd not be the guy who could not care-less about shopping and is impatient half the time..
there'd not be the guy with the super weird abundance of hair on the back of his leg whom everyone thiks is abnormal..
there'd not be the guy who is another huge supporter-not fan- of Hillong and Planetshakers..
there'd not be the guy who tries to be extra alot of the time..
there'd not be the guy who is over-enthusiastic to do things..
there'd not be the guy who loves to watch anime and collect gundams..
there'd not be the guy who wants to be at least abit famous..

can YOU imagine a world without Bobby Lam Yu Wen?? Try to.. Do you think it would have been a better one?? Just try.. would You have had a better life??

Did Bobby Lam make a difference to YOUR life? Was the difference for better or for worse.. would YOu prefer if he was out of your life now?? would You prefer if he wasn't around?? would that give you less worries or cheer up your day abit more?

don't worry.. he's not going to do any stupid thing like suicide..

haiz... he just likes plucking thoughts out of nowhere and thinking about them..
wonder when he'll be filled with substance again.. both spiritual and emotional..

for now he's just faded