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I don't get it.


Why does it keep changing altitude?



Why does it keep going up and down?



Sort of like a sound wave.



When I don't seem to care, I feel that it goes to a high and gets nice.



When I do change my mind and start to care, it sorta drops suddenly and leaves me confused.



So that it like contradicts my course of action.



Maybe my da ge is right.



Maybe my thoughs and observations are not always right.



Maybe they never were right.



And I'm plotting in all the wrong places.



Drawing all the wrong conclusions and making all the wrong hypotheses.



Or just maybe it's not my time-frame yet.



Oh how I contradict myself.



Woe is me.



And my sore throat that is taking so long to go away.