- Seasons of Change -

New song on blog:

When Love Takes You In - by Steven Curtis Chapman


I know you’ve heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You’ve heard about a place called home
But there doesn’t seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream


Where love takes you in and everything changes

A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

When love takes you home and says you belong here

The loneliness ends and a new life begins

When love takes you in


And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be


When love takes you in everything changes

A miracle starts with the beat of a heart


And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could evercause this love to lose its hold


When love takes you in everything changes

A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

When love takes you home and says you belong here

The loneliness ends and a new life begins


When love takes you in it takes you in for good


When love takes you in...



Well all is finally past.


Tomorrow I will hand over my Class Representitive badge to the new elected representitive.


And till December 2007 I will step down from the Worship Team in church.


But all the way till then??


What will the future hold for me?


Will my seasons be jolly? Or filled with folly?


Will it mould me? Or smould me?


Will it be trying? Or easy-going?


Will it be exciting? Or plain-boring?


I don't know.


It does seem kind of scary at first.


But I'm not afraid.


Because I know I'm not alone.


I'll never be.


Thank God =)

negation

I don't want to go through any more shit.



I've made so so many utterly horrible mistakes in life.



It hurts.



It sucks.



Especially knowing I've brought everything upon myself.



And I've pierced my own heart so many times.



I hate it when I switch personalities unconsciously.



From an I to a S or a D.



Why can't I just be an SC?



Things would be so much easier, I wouldn't have to struggle with so much.



Particularly the false front/split personality aspect.



It really sucks because it's not something that I can control or that I decide.



And of late, I'm really beginning to space out alot.



And I have no idea why.



I thought it was because my thoughts were drifting a certain someone.



But then even when that someone was around, I realised I still spaced out.



Spacing out doesn't equate to thinking of nothing, rather of many many things.



Is this a sign of depression?



Maybe I am depressed.



But if I sleep soundly every night then I shouldn't be right??



Why am I so stupid..



Why am I so foolish..



Why am I being so unfair to all the people around me..



The World isn't a fair place??



Yupp, because of people like me; irresponsible and lazy.



Things would be so much easier under certain circumstances..



But why are they put in this way..



The ways that are the hardest possible..



I'm so so sorry I know I promised not to post or even think of any negative stuff..



But sometimes I just can't help myself..



If only I was given the chance to start afresh, in a place where nobody knows me..



If only I was a farm boy who lived in the outskirts in the middle of nowhere, who attended a quiet country side church and met some simple christian farm girl who would suport me through life and we'd live in our own corner of our small world away from everything else...



If only, if only if only...



If only I'd look around more closely..



And someone should just slap me so damn hard right now..




Because I am born again...



And I can be as many times as I want to..



And I...



I'm not a sinner.. I am a saint..



All of us are...



So I should stop trying to struggle through all this myself...



And let he who Knows, take charge..



Treasure of Jesus by Steven Curtis Chapman


What can I do..?

How can I live?

To show my world,

The treasure of Jesus



What will it take..?

What could I give?

So they can know,

The treasure He is



And if I can sing,

Let my songs be full of His glory

If I can speak

Let my words, be full of His grace

And if I should live or die..

Let me be found pursuing this prize..

The one that alone satisfies..

The Treasure of Jesus



I'm sorry that the website that provides me with songs on the blog doesn't have this song so I cannot upload it.


But I still want to share this song cause it touches me so much.

forgive me, for I know not what I have done.

Tour Diary Day 4

Who I Perceive Myself To Be Survey
Name:	Bobby Lam Yu Wen
Birthday:	19th November
Birthplace:	Singapore
Current Location:	House Computer?!?
Eye colour:	Brownish-Black/Blackish-Brown
Hair colour:	Black
Height:	175cm
Right or Left-Handed:	Right
Heritage:	Chinese
Shoes I Wore Today:	Nike uhh.. Air?
Weakness:	Sleeping And Eating
Fears:	Heights
Last Meal Would Be?:	OOTORO SASHIMI!
Goal For This Year:	Share As Much Music As Possible
Most Overused Phrase On Msn Messenger:	haha/hahah/hahaha/aha
First Waking Thought:	What day is it again?
Best Physical Feature:	You tell me
Bedtime:	Anytime. Usually past 11 but before 1230
Most Missed Memory:	Making a fool out of myself in Barker
McDonalds Or Burger King:	Woah.. quite hard seh.. I don't know.
Single Or Group Dates:	Never been on either so I also don't know.
Do You Smoke?:	no.
Swear?:	I try very hard not to.
Sing?:	YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!
Have You Been In Love?:	Hehheh.. uhh.. yes.
Are You In Love Now?:	Uhh.. maybe.
Do You Get Along With Your Parents:	Yup =)
Do You Play An Instrument:	YES!! Guitar. Bit out of touch tho'
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?	With luck, a father.
Saturday, July 15, 2006 Tour Diary Day 4 You know.. I don't get it.. Am I not trying to change? I am aware that I tend to act rather immature at times and my loud personality frequently gets the better of me but.. What if I want it this way? Do I want to grow up? I'm sure I can handle responsibility if I set my mind to it but.. do I want to...? What if I were to leave all this and go back to serving in church? With all the super fun times of being spastic and funny with YangShen, Arthur and Sashi?? I don't know.. What's up with my "orang utan"? Why does it still come about?? What am I doing wrong.. Am I not consciously trying to change.. I know what's wrong but yet I don't change.. or do I.. Why do I constantly question myself and get even more upset and angry.. Why do I want to affect the people around me? Why is the only thing I'm writing here questions? Do I want an apology from last night? What would it change??? Nothing... nothing What is the point of writing all this?? I should seriously cut down on my negative thoughts.. Be big? Forget it. It's always my fault. My fault. Links Google News Edit-Me Edit-Me Previous Posts Stand Amazed The Weakness In My Strength The Inscription of Hope a shift in paradigms into Your hands.. i commit again would you take what you need? but take less than y... and so the world is round tml is the day!!!!!! this is it... I've got no halo on my head Archives November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 September 2007 Subscribe to Posts [Atom]