- whereabouts -

ARGH SUPERDUPER STRESSED!!!!!!


PW written report2nd Draft.


KI Paper 2 and Paper 1.


Chem Weekend Assignment.


Economics DRQ common test.


What have I done this weekend??


Just about the PW.


Funnily enough while writing this I should be feeling very upset but for some ULTRAQUEER reason I seem super HIGH haha.


Oh man that means later I'm gonna feel like pi-sai.


But anyway that's for later.


So I did promise an update, I wanted actually to post about so many other things but I think I too lazy larh..


Just leave you all with where I've been this past two wks. Y


YUp.


TILL NEXT FRIDAY WHEN GOT HOLIDAY WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!


But I wish I had a 72 hour break.


That's all I need to get my life back in order.


JUST 72 FREE HOURS!!!!


ARgh.. like real.


Oh well..

Tenor 06-07' Dinner & TSL BDAY celebrations 16 AUGUST.

PW yesterday at Auggie's place. Tried wearing FangLing's hairband LOL!!

CHIO BU!!!!

A closer view of the CHIO BU! Lol my face super spastic.

Just some graffiti I did on the LT 4 table of the CUTEST GIRL IN THE WHOLE SCHOOL!!

!!QIANQIAN!!!

Da Ge and Xiao Di at Planetshakers ULTRAVIOLET last sat.

SHAKE YOU SHAKE ME!!!!

- a shift in Tides -

That's it I'm entering mugging mode.


I feel so strangled right now.


My term results were quite good but..


Since the tour my grades have just been slipping and slipping..


And I can't afford to waste anymore time..


Thus I'm undertaking semi-desperate measures now before it gets too late.


There's just so many things to do right now.


I've totally lost focus on why I came to Junior College for in the first place.


I cannot not get promoted.


I cannot not know what's going on in the academic side any longer.


Thankfully I've found CHARMAINE LOW from 1SC5 to form mugger group for promos with me.


Woah she's a freaking genius lah.. Straight A's for everything including KI..


Hopefully more people will join this group and we'll mug together and clear promos with the help of each other.


Sometimes studying by myself just leaves doesn't work cos I have too much to ask.


Argh..


I don't have time to think anymore.


I don't have time to think about playing..


I don't have time to think about resting..


I don't even have time to think about her.


But that's a good side of being so pressured.


Cos the more spare time I have to think, I start thinking about why people don't change their actions..


And this leads to me being frustrated and agitated, but in the end the anger directs toward my stupid self.


And I get all worked up over nothing.


But still nothing contains that something.


Argh.


I promise myself I'll never be lukewarm.


Everything but lukewarm.


I'll either be hot,


Or not.


Because I know the absolutely frustrating and irritating effect on people like me.


And especially on someone I know who has the effect multiplied umpteen times.


As the person said.. even the simple things like smses and conversations on msn..


Really can make people worry till half-death.


But from now on,


I won't even have to worry about msn anymore.


Cos I will NOT be using the computer anymore on weekdays till promos are over.


Only saturday night and maybe friday night too, but not sunday.


Unless it's for project work or a KI assignment but I really have to be hard on myself.


So I'm sorry I'll blog only once a week at most.


But if I'm too busy on weekends then a fortnight I guess.


Regarding the sms thing?


I'll admit it still gets to me..


But I don't have time to think anymore..


I need something solid to fall on soon and find my footing..


Or I'll be wasting two years of my life.


God speed your help to me.

- My Measure Of Heaven -

I decided to calculate a bit of the dimensions of heaven.


I used microsoft paint to help me so that I could get a better view lol.


Height, Length and breadth are all an equal length of 603 KM..


The thing that impresses me most is the height..


603 Kilometres..


Thats like.. 75 TIMES THE HEIGHT OF MT EVEREST!!!


Can you imagine standing at the foot of the wall and looking up?!?


Like... You probably won't even see 1/100 of the height of the wall..


WOAH!!


And I thought I wasn't short...


And the wall is 65 metres thick..


Can you imagine 65 metres of diamond??


Like...


Even a nuclear bomb wouldn't be able to do anything..


Letsee... I will post the chapter of Revelations later on so you can get it slightly more in detail but I shall do some of my own random calculations..


If there are 30 Billion people altogether (my assumption), and 10 Billion ( I sure hope there are not so many) who go to hell, there will be 20 Billion left.


If there are 20 Billion who eventually make it to heaven, there will be 40 Billion angels as there are two angels guarding each person.


Assuming God takes up 90000 Square Kilometres (300kmx300km), (pretty small considering He's bigger than the universe) that will leave us with 273609 Square Kilometres to occupy.


Assuming the ground space is for Human Beings only and all the angels fly about above us and don't come down to earth, that leaves us with..


13.7 Square metres per person!!!


Which is about..


3.7 by 3.7 metres (square calculation) to walk about.


Not bad, quite comfortable.


That is assuming that God's throne takes up 300 Square Kilometres.


But I forgot to include the heavenly emsemble!!


Well let's just assume the angels will be playing their instruments in the air.


So for the angels..


If the volume of heaven is 219256227 Kilometres Cube...


And assuming God occupies a volume of 27000000 KM Cube,


They have 192256227 KMC of space to occupy..


That leaves them with...


4.8 KMC of space per angel, pretty alot.


But the problem is I don't know the average size of an angel..


If in heaven an average angels size is 1 kilometre cube..


And each of them plays an instrument of 1 KMC in size too..


Then woah they would have really little space to fly about..


And probably the most one could do would be to spread its wings before it knocks into another angel haha.


But if they were like 10x10 metres in size..


They would be like.. free


Haha I really don't know how big an angel is..


I also forgot to include the area of the river ahhhh!!!!


Its only 852 km long though..


The Nile River is 6852km long...


Oh well we'll never thirst anyway so no difference..


Hmm if the human average walking speed is 7km/hour..


Then it would take 86 hours to walk the length of heaven...


If we decided to take the longest route, the one along the river, it would take us 121 hours..


Pretty long..


Considering we'd probably spend 15 hours talking to every person we meet along the way, and in 852 kilometres we'll come across 230270 people..


(Assuming the 3.7 metre occupied space per person in length)


By the time we reached the other end of heaven from one side it'll be..


3454175 hours..


Or 143923 days...


Or 394.3 years..


That's a pretty short time considering we'd be spending all eternity in heaven..


But that is just one route..


There's still the other 2000000kmsquared to walk..


Oh!!


What about all the time spent admiring heaven?!?


I think it'll take like what..


500 years?!?


And to talk to God would take about..


1000 years to have all our questions answered?!?



Plus all the praise and worship..



Looks like heaven won't be so boring after all haha.



OOps I FORGOT TO ADD IN THE AREA OF THE TWELVE FRUIT TREES!!!!


Argh...


I think by the time I include everything we'd have no space so we'll be all back to back..


But if there is no sweat in heaven, and the only fragrance is the sweet one of God..


Then I guess everybody wouldn't mind, even though all our hands would be raised worshipping and our faces would probably be in each others armpits..


Assuming we have our earthly bodies!!


Or maybe in heaven out armpits smell the best..


Hmm..


So anyway revelations goes on to state that the glory of God provides all the light ever needed..


Illuminating every thing..


And there would be no day nor night nor darkness nor shadows..


Each time I try to imagine a place without shadows it boggles my mind..


No shadows..


Kind of surreal..


Yeah well I guess that heaven would be kind of surreal..


But no shadows.. interesting..


Which would mean the glory of God saturates every particle so light is in everything.


hmmmmmmmmmmm...


Then would we still be able to tell one apart from the other cause shadows do help define features...


Maybe our souls will have some intralink to tell us apart..


Ahh I still don't know..


So anyway this is my measure of heaven..


If I think of anything else I will add it another time..


Haha but once again I may be completely wrong, because though the bigger dimensions are stated in the bible..


Heaven would be pretty small considering God can create the universe which is like 10^1000 times bigger..


So why make heaven so small??


But for now, here is all the details that I didn't include.


Revelations 21:


"1Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea.

2I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband.

3And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God.

4He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

5He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true."

6He said to me: "It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life.

7He who overcomes will inherit all this, and I will be his God and he will be my son.

8But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars—their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death."

9One of the seven angels who had the seven bowls full of the seven last plagues came and said to me, "Come, I will show you the bride, the wife of the Lamb."

10And he carried me away in the Spirit to a mountain great and high, and showed me the Holy City, Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God.

11It shone with the glory of God, and its brilliance was like that of a very precious jewel, like a jasper, clear as crystal.

12It had a great, high wall with twelve gates, and with twelve angels at the gates. On the gates were written the names of the twelve tribes of Israel.

13There were three gates on the east, three on the north, three on the south and three on the west.

14The wall of the city had twelve foundations, and on them were the names of the twelve apostles of the Lamb.

15The angel who talked with me had a measuring rod of gold to measure the city, its gates and its walls.

16The city was laid out like a square, as long as it was wide. He measured the city with the rod and found it to be 12,000 stadia[a]in length, and as wide and high as it is long.

17He measured its wall and it was 144 cubits[b] thick,[c] by man's measurement, which the angel was using.

18The wall was made of jasper, and the city of pure gold, as pure as glass.

19The foundations of the city walls were decorated with every kind of precious stone. The first foundation was jasper, the second sapphire, the third chalcedony, the fourth emerald,

20the fifth sardonyx, the sixth carnelian, the seventh chrysolite, the eighth beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth chrysoprase, the eleventh jacinth, and the twelfth amethyst.[d]

21The twelve gates were twelve pearls, each gate made of a single pearl. The great street of the city was of pure gold, like transparent glass.

22I did not see a temple in the city, because the Lord God Almighty and the Lamb are its temple.

23The city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and the Lamb is its lamp.

24The nations will walk by its light, and the kings of the earth will bring their splendor into it.

25On no day will its gates ever be shut, for there will be no night there.

26The glory and honor of the nations will be brought into it.

27Nothing impure will ever enter it, nor will anyone who does what is shameful or deceitful, but only those whose names are written in the Lamb's book of life."


Revelations 22:

"The River of Life

1Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb

2down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations.

3No longer will there be any curse. The throne of God and of the Lamb will be in the city, and his servants will serve him.

4They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads.

5There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, for the Lord God will give them light. And they will reign for ever and ever.

6The angel said to me, "These words are trustworthy and true. The Lord, the God of the spirits of the prophets, sent his angel to show his servants the things that must soon take place."

- i'm a big kid now -

On the way home from church in a single-decker 165 today, I met the prettiest little Indian girl.



She probably was no more than 5, and had eyelashes as long as my fingernails.



She was seated directly in front of me, and like all other kids was making a bit of a ruckus in the bus.



Choosing to be ignorant, I just stared out of the window and watched the houses fly past.



But then soon I realised everything became quiet, and she was staring at me.



I eventually turned to meet her sweet, innocent gaze.



In her eyes, bright sparks of curiousity and in her smile, pure joy of heart.



A sight that I have all too quickly forgotten.



For some reason I had to tear myself away by pretending I had something stuck in my eye.



I had no idea why I did that.



And I had also no idea why I wished she would turn away.



She did, but turned back pretty quickly and started fidgeting about, all the time keeping her inquisitive big eyes focused on me.



I managed to turn back and force a slight smile, and she, as if noticing it suddenly grinned with all sincerity as her big eyes became even bigger.



My heart melted at the sight, and I began to really smile too.



As I turned to press the bell, I caught her following me and pressing the side bell, as if being my imitation, from the side of my eye.



I laughed silently inside.



But once again, I failed to turn back one last time to see her as I headed toward the exit door.



I simply cannot understand why.



I really really really wanted to whisk around and wave a goodbye but I didn't, as I also had wanted to do so so many other times to others.. but..



I just.. couldn't.. though I so much wanted to..



Is society finally getting to me?



The hard-heartedness of life?



I used to be so, so good with kids just a few years back.



I used to try and make babies crack up with laughter in the MRT by making funny faces or doing something dumb.



I knew how to evoke strong emotions within little kids as I led them at children camps and services.



I knew exactly what to say to make little boys and girls stop crying, or not cry altogether.



Not a very easy thing to do if you've ever tried to before.



I remember them avidly chasing me all over the place, trying to catch me by the knees with their tiny hands and fingers.



I used.. to enjoy just being around these little people whose energy never seemed to run out..



And when it eventually did I used to watch them ever-so-peacefully drift to sleep as I watched over them..




But where have all those moments gone now..



Oh how I wish I could just turn time slightly back to be on the bus again..



To do something that would really make the girls day, as her sincere smile made mine..



How I wish I could turn back time to start so many things over again..



But I can't..



Once chance is all I've got..



I hope I don't blow too many of them..

X.X

Bobby realises that he has been frequently posting alot of emo stuff.


Bobby doesn't like to write emo stuff.


Bobby use to blog really interesting and fun stuff.


But where have all those kind of posts gone to?


Bobby wonders.


Bobby thinks it's maybe cos he has so much on his mind.


He also thinks that he has so much work to catch up on.


He also also thinks that maybe its because its not just work that is on his mind but other important things and people too.


And maybe K&I is draining quite a bit too much of his brain power.


Not forgetting the mundanity(?!?) of chinese.


Ultimately, Bobby thinks that he's not getting enough sleep.


He has been sleeping rather regularly though in the library during his free periods.


But that still doesn't add up to his 10 hour daily needed intake of sleep.


So that is not too good.


Bobby thinks its quite weird that he's talking about himself in the third person perspective.


He asks you, "don't you think so too?"


Well Bobby concurs that its actually quite fun for a change and thus he decided that it shall be done this way.


Bobby needs more creativity though, for this method of posting will become rather dumb after some time.


To do that, he will have to find more than 24 hours per day so he can rest his puny sized, inefficient brain.


But Bobby's latest motto is: "don't think, just study."


Rather long way of expressing "mug"


But it is kind of helpful, if you just accept and follow the statement.


Might help you get more things done, like what Bobby believes.


Though he hasn't exactly tried it yet.


Oh well...


Bobby needs to enter mugging mode super soon or he will seriously lag behind in his studies and become stupider.


But for now, Bobby wants to sleep.


"Good night world!" he says.


"Goodnight =)"