- a shift in Tides -

That's it I'm entering mugging mode.


I feel so strangled right now.


My term results were quite good but..


Since the tour my grades have just been slipping and slipping..


And I can't afford to waste anymore time..


Thus I'm undertaking semi-desperate measures now before it gets too late.


There's just so many things to do right now.


I've totally lost focus on why I came to Junior College for in the first place.


I cannot not get promoted.


I cannot not know what's going on in the academic side any longer.


Thankfully I've found CHARMAINE LOW from 1SC5 to form mugger group for promos with me.


Woah she's a freaking genius lah.. Straight A's for everything including KI..


Hopefully more people will join this group and we'll mug together and clear promos with the help of each other.


Sometimes studying by myself just leaves doesn't work cos I have too much to ask.


Argh..


I don't have time to think anymore.


I don't have time to think about playing..


I don't have time to think about resting..


I don't even have time to think about her.


But that's a good side of being so pressured.


Cos the more spare time I have to think, I start thinking about why people don't change their actions..


And this leads to me being frustrated and agitated, but in the end the anger directs toward my stupid self.


And I get all worked up over nothing.


But still nothing contains that something.


Argh.


I promise myself I'll never be lukewarm.


Everything but lukewarm.


I'll either be hot,


Or not.


Because I know the absolutely frustrating and irritating effect on people like me.


And especially on someone I know who has the effect multiplied umpteen times.


As the person said.. even the simple things like smses and conversations on msn..


Really can make people worry till half-death.


But from now on,


I won't even have to worry about msn anymore.


Cos I will NOT be using the computer anymore on weekdays till promos are over.


Only saturday night and maybe friday night too, but not sunday.


Unless it's for project work or a KI assignment but I really have to be hard on myself.


So I'm sorry I'll blog only once a week at most.


But if I'm too busy on weekends then a fortnight I guess.


Regarding the sms thing?


I'll admit it still gets to me..


But I don't have time to think anymore..


I need something solid to fall on soon and find my footing..


Or I'll be wasting two years of my life.


God speed your help to me.