- Intellectual Defense -

Sometime across the study of K&I or Philosophy, my teacher said there'd bound to be something that will make me angry.


What he meant was that there'd be some idea I didn't support and would be biased against and try to undermine but I'd find myself not being able to.


And I'm beginning to realise more and more the truth of his statement.


I find myself so vastly inadequate and unknowledgeable when I read across all the text of thousands of Philosophers past and present.


What gets me most upset?


When there is an article that is anti-christian that I cannot argue against because I just have no content to support myself.


And the number of articles that add up in this aspect are..


Too many to count because alot of things entail this area..


Like how there is no such thing as God, or how humans came about by evolution, or how we cannot prove that God exists or how Christianity has been so inconsistent and YES I absolutely cannot prove those passages wrong cos I don't know anything..


What I thought I knew is just..


Relatively nothing..


I too want to know so much about my faith..


Where was God during the crusades?


Why did He allow them to happen?


Thousands upon thousands were massacred in the name of God..


Why?


Why did God change His nature from the Old to the New Testament?


Why are the two creation stories in the bible different?


Adam was indeed the first man created right? But God created many other men and women and they all didn't come through Adam right?


Why did God create us??


Why do we worship Him if He is omni-benevolent?


Why why why why...


I find myself at an infinite regress of questions..


Argh..


And I don't have time to pursue the answers because I'm just so bogged down by so many other things..


And to top it all of Metaphysics is only one of the Five large areas of K&I..


sigh...


Someone once gave me this proposition:

"Can God create a stone that He cannot carry?"

I realise that I cannot answer that question because either way it will disprove God in some manner..


Pfft...


I need the help of a theologian who can tell me everything..


anyone know where I can find one?