thought

so.. finally an update!! haha.. i have alot i would like to say but unfortunately i r 2 tired.. well.. finefine.. lazy..

so now my new nick is bobbly.. i still like bobsta better though.. brainless chinhui n PONKLY!! lol.. hmm... like my 6th nick so far.. i think..

anyway.. i really wanted to put the song 'FRIEND OF GOD' as a song on my blog last wk... but.. now i'm not so sure..

In the sermon at the retreat on friday by John Piper in the video he preached about his generation teaching the wrong things about God. He said his generation had taught us that WE or I am the centre of the universe and God revolves around us. He said that this should not be but instead God should have been and always be the centre. God in all His 'absolutely infinite, morally perfect values made accessible by the death of his son on the cross holiness.' of which ' the thing that radiates this holiness is known as His Glory.' should be the one deserving of all the praises and recognition and worth. Not us. And that is so true.

But yet.. while we( Jeremy, Joshua, Mag n I) were at Eugene's house last sunday after lunch.. while listening to Michael Gungor's version of Friend of God.. Jeremy said it wasn't a song he favored. I wondered why as it speaked of God's acceptance over a sinner like us but he reminded me of the sermon preached. And he said that the fact that the chorus revolves so much around I and not God it also portrays the 'mistakes made by generations before'.

I.. dont really know if i should agree with him.. on one hand yes the chorus does revolve around I.. but!... shouldnt we learn that God should call us a friend or is willing to do so and accept is then after that as we enter into a deeper relationship with him then glorify him?? especially for new christians or lost souls..?? i really don't know.. yes our ultimate goal is to glorify God.. but what point would unbelievers follow God for if all they do is glorify God and not truly be sure if God accepts them no matter the price?? I think God's acceptance through songs such as these is more how to say.. appealing?? to unbelievers?? Yes my ultimate goal is to glorify God but is it that wrong to say I am a friend of God?? will twisting it around make a difference?? God is a friend of me?? is not that even worse?? well.. i dunno.. but i really would like all who read this post for their comments.. if u r a christian that is.. incase u r wondering how the song goes it's like this:

Friend of God

Who am i that You are mindful of me
That You hear me when i call
Is it true You were thinking of me
That You loved me
It's amazing

Chorus:
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
He calls me friend

Bridge:
God almighty
Lord of glory
You have called me friend

ddoodoo

well... i need to sleep cos gotta get up early to go off for worship retreat tmr.. haiz.. too much hassle.. my strings just had to break on wed.. haiz... and im too tired to restring now lol.. yeah so anyways wont b back till sat night.. c u classmates at the wedding.. remember its at 10.

Bye

dd

so had practice today agin... found out from andrea im rooming with Jeremy and one other person (she forgot who).. lol.. and she also sed that everyone gonna get band shuffled agin nxt yr.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! haha i wanna stay with my band!! The Cacaws rock man.. lol.. with arthur.. xuefeng.. yang shen.. mag.. ben... haiz..
haha i also asked if i could be same band as alex if shuffled and she was like nO!!
then i was like why??? and Yang Shen came along and sed " cos u'd both be too good!"
bleah... so?? haha.. its fun being with alex!! yay!! at least we're playing together for pnp!! haha... well not gonna write much today.. need to eat soon.. havent had dinner yet... bleah... cheers ya?

It's DonE!!

Ok!! YEs this is the final version!!! version 2 lol.. nothing much changed except for pre-chorus one and the last few lines of chorus!! yay Yang Shen sez its good!! haha.. Hallelujah! so here goes!!

Your Love
You said Your love is the reason that I see
You said Your love has the power to me free

Pre Chorus 1:
But what is this feeling what is this desire
What is this passion that burns like fire

What is this treasure so patient and kind
So infinite so divine

Chorus:
And Lord I will lift my voice
Lift my heart and sing
For Your love is my light
Is my Joy my life
So hear my cry
Cos’ I want all of Your love

Verse 2:
You said Your love is the key to eternity
You said Your love is the purpose that is me

Pre Chorus 2:
Yet what is this love for which Jesus died
That makes us kneel and makes us cry

What is this mystery I don’t know
But I want it so

Bridge:
I want Your love in my life in my life Lord

The 3rd song..

The title says it all!! yeap.. so my third christian song is done!! Yay!! recording with Alex starts next week after his a's. Gonna put our version of the camp song in too!! the one called Save by jerm n eugene. Yeah will be singing this song during the camp!! haha lucky Yang Shen agreed.. He didnt like one of the last lines though so i'm trying to change it! haha.. it's called Your Love and umm hope u like the lyrics =D cos i've got no way to sing to u until the recordings are done. Hope the words are meaningful!!

Your Love
Copyright© 2004 Written By Bobby Lam =D

You said Your love is the reason that I see
You said Your love has the power to me free

Pre Chorus 1:
But what is this feeling what is this desire
What is this passion burning like fire

What is this treasure so patient and kind
So infinite so divine

Chorus:
And Lord I will lift my voice
Lift my heart and sing
For Your love is my light
Is my Joy my prayer
So hear my cry
Cos’ I want Your love in my life

Verse 2:
You said Your love is the key to eternity
You said Your love is the purpose that is me

Pre Chorus 2:
Yet what is this love for which Jesus died
That makes us kneel and makes us cry

What is this mystery I don’t know
But I want it so

Bridge:
I want Your love in my life in my life Lord

so whaddya think or the words?? any comments?? haha.. cheers!

the river...

well nothing much happened today.. just went to play lan with a few others after church.. yups.. dota!!! lol..

anyways.. heard a song in my 1st church service today.. it's a new song by Brian Doerksen.. and it really touched my heart.. it's from his latest TODAY album.. seriously go check it out.. it goes like this.. :

The River
To the river.. i am going
Bringing sins i cannot bear
Come and cleanse me.. come forgive me
Lord i need to meet You there

In these waters.. healing mercy
Flows with freedom from despair
I am going.. to that river
Lord i need to meet You there

Precious Jesus, I am ready
To surrender every care
Take my hand now, lead me closer
Lord i need to meet You there

Come and join us.. in the river
Come find life beyond compare
He is calling.. He is waiting
Jesus longs to meet You there

He is calling.. He is waiting... Lord i need to meet thee there

the day came..

so.. time for update..

Yesterday.. my BDAE!!! haha.. my mom like jumped on me at 9.30am while i was still having my beauty sleep and was like 'WAKE UP BOBBY!! Happy Birthday!! GEt up quickly to eat the breakfast i prepared for you!!' and i was like... let me slp pls..

*anyways* i got up and ate my sunny-side eggs n sausages before bustling off to school to prepare for the gala. Hmm.... didn't really notice but the choir did act strange.. being mean to me until like.. lunch.. when... HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOBBY!!!! and they brought out a cake and... YAAAARRRGGHHHHHHH.. a tiny can of cat food stacked under like 100 newspapers in a fake present wrapping and foced me to open (luckily i ran away first).. like ..HELLO AH!!! I'M A DOG HOR.. NOT CAT.. ur supposed to get me pedigree not friskies.. stoopid brendan.. haiz...

*next* so.. was really scared for the choir for the pre-performance repertoire in front of the big-shot guests.. even at the rehersals the screw-ups were plentifull!! but.. WOW!! They did so well!! THey sang the songs almost perfectly!! HAHA!!! I'm one happy student conductor!!! some ppl. were even surprised like Mr Zechariah Goh our choir teacher.. YAY!! even a teacher came up to us and told us the guests loved it!!!! haha.. if only we always sang like this.. mebbe cab get gold nxt yr!! (crosses fingers) =P

*and then there was* the performance itself!! hwah.. super long waiting time loh.. b4 the show thank this guy that guy for being present.. anyways.. so it was real great!! ohoh!!!!

*before this* there was the makeup.. wow.. had some groovy hairdo that this professional hairstylist did for me.. kool.. but.. WAH!!!!! STUPID RAJ AH!!!!!!!! Ms PAng had.. just HAD to go tell him it was my birthday lah.. and he tried to spray happy birthday on my hair with white spray.. #^#@&*(^*$!#&@*)$()@*%*#@()&)$*@.. he ended up spraying Hi on the back of my head instead.. WAH SCREW.. *and* HE ALSO applied a super HUGE mole on my right cheek lah!!! WA LAU EH!!!.. but nvm.. had my revenge after the show when we taupoked him,... MUHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!

*back to the show* so... the show began and everything went real well.. except.. YARGH the guy backstage who was supposed to help me unbotton to change costumes was not there!!!! ARGH!!!! phew.. luckily i didnt miss my part anyways.. *thanks God*

*next blooper* BWHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAA!!!! Bryan Choong's lighstick flew out of his hand when he was taking it out cos he did it too quickly!! BWHAHAHAA!!! it was like.. spinning on the floor in the darkness.. and there was one empty black space between the performers.. haha...

*then there was...* yeah.. well there were acjc dance crew helping out through the whole show.. and two of them were girls.. we were like all crazy over the gurls lah. (boys school so umm.. u noe) especially Tze Ho and Clarence... wah basket went up to hug them and take picture with them afta show.. anyways... yeah so everything went great.. got to shake Mr Tan Wah Thong's hand too lah!!!woowhoo!!

*the greatest part* THE TAUPOK!!!!!!! hahahaa.. we tried once but failed cos Raj's legs were like.. iron.. on our second try he bent down for a photo and after that like... 20 guys jumped on him.. hahahahhahaha!!! but! i was the third unlucky guy.. =( *almost died*.. yeah wanted to go for supper after the show but was too tired.. anyways!!! wow.. my 15th bdae.. most memorable so far yet..


*moving on to today* so today FINALLY could sleep till like.. 1130.. then had breakfast and slacked thw hole day till dinner where we had buffet at New Otari hotel.. hwow.. they had like.. everything there lah.. even tempura!!!!!! yay!! i ate like.. 20 pieces.. even the ang mohs at the next table were like.. hwoah.. lol..

*finally..* *sorry if you've had to read so much.. haha* haiz.. think i ate too much.. looks like i won't forget ELECTRIC YOUTH ever.. it truly was a memorable experience.. alll thanks to God anyway!! like.. Hallelujah!! yay.. well.. they played John Denver through the buffet!! haha. i was like humming along..

well.. about my crucial decision.. yup.. ive chosen the third choice.. i'll walk into unknowns trusting.. yeah.. thats my choice.. hope its the right one.. though most unstable.. but i wanna trust wholeheartedly.. and i wont stop forever!!
so.. haha.. no nned to worry about me anymore.. (if you've got no idea what i'm talking about u can check my archives.. or if u can't be bothered then u dont need to noe..)

So.. let's end with the chorus from John Denver's < Take Me Home Country Roads >

Country Roads.. take me home
To the place.. I belong
West Virginia.. Mountain Moma
Take me home.. country roads...

lol.. great song.. only.. my Home is Heaven

.. birthday?? yes.. fine.. i'll be happae

OK.. so alot of things have happened in these past two days.. well.. guess cos it'll be like my birthday in 30 mins... mebbe i'll do todays one on a light note!

So yes.. it finally came.. ELECTRIC YOUTH.. well the blunders were like.. ALOT.. but still we all had a great time dancing and stuf.. KOOL!!!! i finally.. like FINALLY got the chance to colour spray my HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAHHHHH!!!! it was like.. kool blue mann.. i thnk i'll dye it that colour.. haha.. yeah and i got made up today.. my first time since like.. my kindergarden performance.. with foundation.. lipstick.. eyeshadow.. etc etc etc.. well.. it was kinda kool..
HEY i looked VERY PRETTY k....
like a flower!! lol..

so.. i havent actually thought about what i want for my bdae yet cos.. i've like been so busy and stuf.. hmm.. but i alr got so many things i wanted liao.. a new git.. new hp.. like.. im not very materialistic.. as in seriously.. i dont care about shirts and stuff.. just cant be bothered.. dunno why others are so into them.. but like.. hmm.. now i've got a choice.. mebbe like an mp3 would be nice!! haha
i think that's an impossible dream.. considering what i've got dis yr alr. lols.. any ideas??

so.. back to the performance.. stooppid claire n nut.. dun wanna pay for the ticks.. $$$40 not free wan ah!!!!!! so desp. somemore.. ask me ask for my friends hp no. and name... haiz... they've been bullying me since the choir trip back in sec 1 anyways.. can't do much can i..

so all in all i've have a good day!! just didnt like waking up so early.. ARGH tmr got pre-concert repetoire.. and i'm conducting!!! God help me pls.. the choir sounds so bad somemore... haiz..

i still dunno who James Dean is.. so i dunno if being called him is a good or bad thing.. anyways... my like new fav. old time singer is John Denver!! his songs are so Lo0Oo0Oovely!!!! like Sunshine On My Shoulders and Take Me Home Country Roads!!
nice! lol.. i'll just leave with the chorus of SUnshine on My Shoulders:

Sunshine.. on my shoulders.. makes me happy
Sunshine.. in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine.. on the water.. looks so lovely
Sunshine.. almost always gets me high

Sunshine on the water looks so.. lovely!!

well tomorrows the Gala Night.. wish me luck!! and pls pray for my choir too!! cheers!

the clay...

So there it is.. the truth is out.. well said Raj.. ireally don't know if i wanna thank you or condemn u forever.. but i mean.. i can't right??? i don't care if ms Pang or Raj reads this blog... i'll just say it straight out loud n' clear.. i am DAMN offended.. that's right.. DAMN.. don't push it man.. don't darn PUSH it.. i can take some but don't overdo it...

i reallly REAAALLLY wanna swear alot like.. right now... @#(&*%*#^#@^$!@*&#$_(*@($#&%#*()@@!^$*(@!^_#*&*($(#^%&*(#^&%^@#&*(@*(&$()!@*#(*@)#(@+_!)#+_@($%#*@%&()@#$&*(&%*)@#$&%)*(@#&%()&*@#()$*(@#&%()*#)&!@#(+_#$()!*%(#&%#()@&%(#$%Q@#$@# YAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i havent even chosen my path yet..
and yet i feel like i'm being hurried...
i know u both have the right intentions and i try to take it the right way but sometimes... i just can't... some very few times.. like this one..

gosh... sorry if this surprises you who reads my blog... tis just that..
why's my heart so heavy and feels so burdened?? i don't wanna go through this now.. is this like.. my trials and tribulation.. well sure i thought that they would be much worse but.. i think this is as far as i can take it...

haiz.. i think i need... i need to get a grip on myself.. get back to trust.. get back to Him..

change my...
change my heart O Lord..
make it ever true.. change my heart O Lord
may i be like You..

You are the potter..
i am the clay..
take me and mould me..
this is what.. i.. pray...

indeed.. it is what i... pray

reflector...

Have i found the answer to my question?? Why didn't i take notice of these words earlier... i was playing my guitar during the sound-check before service when i just gave a slight thought about the words of this song by PLANETSHAKERS:

I wanna be a reflector
I wanna shine with Your glory
I wanna let the whole world know that you're living in me
I wanna burn with Your fire
Shine my light a little brighter
I wanna let the whole world know that Jesus lives in me

I wanna be a reflector...

is that the answer to my problems?? do i wanna see Jesus when i look in the mirror?? i really want to.. or do i?? im starting with the man in the mirror... im asking if he'd change his ways... to change to another mirror.. in which Jesus is the person.. and i'm the reflection..

yes.. i would really like that.. so it is true that the further we mature in christ the more distant God seems... why does it have to be like this?? WHY??? i know it's to make us mature more and.. put us through trials.. but i'm so young.. or am i?

reflector.. this changes my whole perspective of things.. now i have a third path to choose from.. the most uncertain one yet.. yet being uncertain.. i can't be sure if its good or bad.. for one thing i don't have to decide much and just trust.. on the other hand i don't like the idea of treading uncertainly.. it's just.. i don't

Your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path..

is not what i am reading enough?? is my quiet time not enough?? do i have to read chapters upon chapters each day?? if what i am doing is enough and God's grace is sufficient why does my path still seem so dim?? God wants us to go beyond ourselves ultimately for him and i want to do that.. but....

i don't know.. it just seems all so cliche.. yet.. people have been trying to put through to us that this is necessary.. but.. what is this??? u mean walking down uncertain paths?? trusting God every step of the way?? why can't we choose our own path and still trust God to provide for us?? isit wrong??

this third path also seems so out of point.. yet it's linked to everything.. burn with fire...

sometimes i just wanna burn.. so bright and radiant.. and carefree... can someone can You please.. just let me.. burn

life... changer??

Have u ever had a day in which would change the rest of your life?? YOu know.. the kind that u sorta see in movies and stuf and think would never be real?? Some thing that would not change your style of life but also your mindset and your mannerism's?

Well i thought these kind of days were like never gonna happen... till today. It's just like... hwoah.. not so perfect yet... so real.. infact not perfect at all...

Have u ever been stuck in a dilemma which would probably affect the rest of your life?? The kind u think would only come along when you're working or have a family or sth?? And these choices are based on what u have obsereved and set apart in your own way and yet being asked to move away from this reality into screen-play mode in order to progress along in life??

ARGh! sometimes i just wanna scream... i really.. dont know if alot of ppl. go through this 'phase'.. i just wish it wasnt happening.. just wish that days like these would nver have to come along.. though sometimes we wanna now what they really are like... just wish i could undo alot of the past.. yet keep some of it.. and i would never have the experience had i not gone throught these stages..

yet do i really want those experiences?? do i want to grow up so fast??? i just wish... i dont know..

i wont say much about what really happened.. it's really.. kinda personal.. but.. all i'll say is i'm in a dilemma right now... and one of those u dont really like to make a decision about..

do i really want to make a change??

these are the words of one of the songs i'll be performing next week.. mebbe i should have paid closer attention to them earlier.. it's by michael jackson.. the chorus goes like this:

I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking if he'd change his ways
And no message could've been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself then make that
Change...

... if you wanna make the world a better place... take a look at yourself.. then make that... change...

today

hmm.. letsee.. woke up super early agin to go to sch for choir.. we had to sew today... hwow... my first sewing lesson... stupid choir costumes... the no. of sequinns are like.... 50... and i gave up after 6 ;D ( fat slacker)

so came back afta dat and went to sleeeep!! my like.. super super favourite activity :D

hmm.. so nothing much actually.. like.. beside my parents arguing about my sista's marriage at da dinner table n stuf'.. haiz.. lyke i wanna care...

uhhh... nothing much to write actually.. hmm.. what should i give for my 2c..?? and ideas??

0.01 + 0.01 = 0.02

haha ok let's start wif joke!!

Three Tickets

There were three priests in a railroad station, all wanting to go home to Pittsburgh. Behind the ticket counter was a very, very shapely lass, well endowed, gorgeous, amazing woman. The priests were all in embarrassing new territory, so they drew straws to determine who would get the tickets.
The first priest approached the window. “Young lady,” he began, “I would like three pickets to titsburg.” Whereupon he completely lost his composure and fled.

The second priest approached. “Young lady, I would like three tickets to Pittsburgh,” he began, “and I would like the change in nipples and dimes.” So, of course, he also fled.

Then came the third. “Young lady, I would like three tickets to Pittsburgh, and I would like the change in nickels and dimes. And I must say,” he continued, “if you insist on dressing like that when you get to the pearly gates, St. Finger’s going to shake his peter at you.”


hmm.. so's dat funnae?? lols.. so my 2c today is abt...
the elements... well lets just do fire cos i need my beauty sleeeeep..

fire.. the sun... light?!? isn't amazing how light fits into almost everywhere... impossible to escape or knock it away... hwow.. and that the darkness always always loses to darkness... even a match in the darkness night would illuminate all.. hmm.. powerful..

and fire.. a source of heat, of light, of energy... fire which could light a matchstick could set vasts great forests on fire.. take lives... take houses.. homes.. habitats... bend steel... never break but.. bend steel?? hwoah... and this same fire could simply be used to light a cigarette or a lamp.. but 'inspired' on by 'impulses' such as kerosene or gas could bring even whole steel structured buildings down??!!?? ( such as in 911)( mebbe it was da lousy structures).. but watching a documentary about the true causes and effects of 911 it proved that just kerosene and fire could easily blow away fire-proof coating and take down monster structures... hwoah...

hwow.. sigh... beautiful stars light the skye tonight.. heavenly.. simply... heavenly

Another day...

hmm.. so there was today...

nothing much happened actually in contrast to yesterdayzy... just learnt a few more dancer.. discover i actually can dance.. hmm.. not bad.. haiz.. but all the holidays!!! what happened to my wake up after 12 schedule?!? yaaaaarrrghhh....

tmr gotta wake up and go to skool by 9.......... 9??!!?%^(#@&$*&$&#$@#) so *&#*@%*(#*(&*(@#&$ early!!!! *&$*(&$*(^#*(#T^%&Q()$*#*%(#*%@#&*()$@#%#*!!!!!

haiz.. started on sec4 china today too.. my tuition teacha sez that i muz learn finish the syllabus b4 skool starts.. hopefully i dont drown in china... lols..

k tyme for my 2 cents..

My $0.02

so i'm like thinking right.. hwoah.. the world sure is one wonderful place... so complex yet just so simple.. think about this:

one guy lives in a certain neighbourhood.. knows exactly the arrangement of the area... and knows everyone who lives beside him oh so well like his neighbours and stuff.. and a place where we call home.. while across the country we totally dont know anything about the ppl or the environment there.. yet to that special person living over that side its his home and surroundings..

hwow.. such amazing diversity... it's just like cars... and people.. they all are at one certain place at a certain time and they all piece together perfectly... all so near yet so distant in minds and thoughts.. be it on the sidewalk or highway... lols..

gotta go now again.. lols... back tmr with my 0.02 on the elements.. what a wonderful world God created..

My duh Day ;D

woke up at eight today.... was wondering what the heck i woke up so friggin' early for when Yang Shen's face popped into my mind and i was like.. oh yeah.. i gotta go teach him guitar.. bleah... then plopped back my face into my pillow and waited for my auto snooze to go off... slept past another two snoozes then woke up washed up and went off...

hmm.. it was a SUPER long walk to his house from Somerset man.. like 3km... almost died 1/2way... anyways so i taught him basically how to bar n stuff then went on another 2k walk back to school.. for choir!!

learnt choreography for ELECTRIC YOUTH ( can't they think of a better name?? ). not bad actually just that the instructor kept getting pissed at us cos we were all so lazy.. lols... finally got it though.. after.. alot of scoldings... like... alot... haiz then watched the other participating groups dance here n dere... slept through their performances and almost got scolded ( why i wanna watch them dance for what??? )... haiz.. dunno lah.. concert with overpriced tickets and stuf.. hope it'll be good

thats all 4 now.. tomorrow gotta go back for more :( yaaaaaaargh!!!! byes

Light the world 

Hmm..

Hello this is my new bloggy. Truth is i wanted to get one cos everyone else has. Lol